Half there, Half aware...: Self

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I have recently found myself with the undeniable realization I am indeed half way there. By there I mean an end to my time on earth. Not in a morbid sense that I have one foot in the grave, but in the sense I hope to arrive on the other side having reached a state of growth.

I see myself rapidly approaching middle age. No this is not a crisis, a cry in the dark for a long gone childhood, adolescence, or early adulthood. I do not mourn their passing. In reality I am embracing my "later" 30's with a full on passion. I am actually loving the changes in my mind and spirit, although the body needs more work.

I realize there is a process. When we are children are are uniquely oblivious to so many things. Time, age, responsibility etc. But most significant to me is that we never take the time to go "who am I?" By the time we reach adolescence we spend all our time asking that question without the means to find the right answers. Then when we finally grow out of the awkwardness of puberty we are in no place in the rapid evolution of education, to job, to family, to overwhelming responsibility to return to the question. We have the means to seek the answers but not the time or will to begin the journey.

If out growing my 20's has shown me anything its that I now have the will and the means. I have done more to grow in the six years I have been 30 something then in the 30 years before.

So this is my journey. You get to start half way through and if you choose to carry on with me, perhaps we will both end up more aware.